My Eid

Belated Eid Mubarak!! I know I am late but the last few days were tiring. For all the people who don’t know what Eid is or what I am babbling about let me explain. Eid ul Fitr is a Muslim religious festival that marks the end of Ramadan. You can Google it if you are interested to know more or just message me, don’t wanna forcefully make people read about it.
I spent the last whole day with my maternal extended family who invited us over for lunch and dinner. My cousin’s 5 year old daughter kept chasing me around. She is adorable and has started to love me (and here I thought I was a mean person). I was sitting on a folding chair and I didn’t know she was standing right behind me pulling at it. My uncle asked me to do something so I got up but the chair kind of flipped and she fell. She started crying and then I started crying because I thought it was my fault, I am a softie. Just wanted to share this moment here so in future when I feel emotionless and heartless, I can come back and read this.

My first day was spent getting ready, taking pictures and realizing how bad they all turned out to be. I don’t know how social media and apps like Instagram and Snapchat can have so much affect on my mood. I am not one of those people who spend all their time getting jealous. I am fine with everyone being happy and posting pretty pictures. It just makes me realize how miserable I feel (ugly too). All those videos showing how you can click good pictures don’t matter because I do click nice photos, it’s just people click ugly photos of me. It’s super annoying!

I told my mom how I don’t feel happy like not in a specific moment or something like generally and how I don’t feel excited like I used to. I guess I haven’t felt happy, content and satisfied in a long time but it’s Eid so no sad talk.

In short, just wanted to write something, nothing extra ordinary. Just wanted to talk about my day I guess.

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Note: I made an Instagram account with this username -> thinbrowngirl I haven’t started posting yet because i don’t know if people are interested plus i don’t have many followers. Just dropping it here in case anyone wants to go and follow me.

Have a nice day! Bye for now